Inner Monologue

This was my inner monologue on my drive home from work tonight...

Thought 1: Hmmm, what do I want to do for exercise tonight?
Thought 2: Go to the gym Kelly, you have your gym bag with you.
T1: I hate the gym after New Years when everyone is there and it's packed and you have to share a swim lane with 5 other people or wait in line for a cardio machine...
T2: Go to the gym.
T1: Maybe I'll just go home and have a dance party for 30 minutes.
T2: Go to the gym. You'll feel better and you know you have energy to burn. Go get in the pool.
T1: But it's cold. I'm freezing right now and the thought of undressing, getting into a bathing suit and then into a luke warm pool sounds HORRIBLE! Then there's wet hair until I get home...
T2: Yeah but you LOVE to swim and you'll feel great afterwards! PLUS you are Ironman training. Go to the gym because you know there's a chance you won't exercise if you go home.

(Brain pause...listening to music and slowly deciding to head toward the gym after missing my turn to go home.)

T1 & T2: OOOOHHH, a person out running at night!! Wait, I COULD GO RUNNING! I have reflector gear and a head lamp! Yeah, running at night sounds fun!! I'm doing it! (More positive thoughts and confirmation as I see more runners out on my drive home.)

I then U-turn and proceeded homeward. I walked inside, saw my latest Fitness magazine in the mail pile, checked email/Facebook and totally didn't go running. BUT I did do a circuit workout for about 20 minutes that got me sweating and breathing heavy. Not a run but at least it was something.

Today was a good reminder that I need to start mapping out my workouts the night before. Then I won't take the time to think about what I want to do and talk myself out of it. Instead I will just do whatever was already planned. I'm so indecisive that in the moment thoughts/decisions can often derail me.

Good times.